Jekylishly JeLLy

I know I have nothing to worry
I know I can totally trust you
I know there is nothing more to it

But,
I can't shake of that feeling
That foreboding thought of what could
That nagging feeling that I shouldn't

I can't stop thinking about it
Can't focus on anything else but that
Can't help but wonder...

I know it means a lot to you
I know its probably the closure you need
In the midst of a turmoltous history
An ending to that chapter of life.

Yet i can help it.

Everything is under scrutiny
Every small detail
Everything seems to have a meaning
At least part of a bigger picture.

So many thoughts run through my head like a bullet train
Rushing through and through
Over and over again like waves at the seashore
Lapsing in and out repeatedly.

As nonchalant as you are
Sounds like just another casual event to you
I hate myself for what goes on in my head
I probably grounded my thoughts into sand

I can't bear to stand it anymore
All I want is the day to be over
And the night too
And that it passes fast
Like lightning.

So allay my fears with reassuring words
Remove all clouds of doubt with a hug
Seal that thought with a kiss
Tell me it will all be alright
Hold me tightly into the night.

It's in the everyday things

I try... I do...honest!!
But I still find myself thinking about you

It's in the little little things
It's in the everyday stuff
Nothing fancy
Nothing extraordinary.
That's the problem.

But when you're around, I'm dumbfounded.
I can't speak...
I choke up.
I rehearse my words and they sound utterly ridiculous.