Have you ever had that feeling of foreboding... or one of deja-vu... where-by someone describes smth and you can identify immediately with that person cos you've been there before? I had that again... and so memories of old came flooding back... and here i am... left with myself to brood it over... the songs that lullaby me to sleep... the thought of what it was like when everything was going my way... but it also brought back reminders of how dumb i was to throw it all away... indecisiveness... lack of character... and so... now i'm left with basically just me, myself and I. *sigh*
onto better thoughts... Finished 2 'papers' out of 9 from my Final State Attestation Exams... "Gos" they call it here... short of "Gosudarstvenie" which is Russian for State. MCQs over... Therapy practical skills over... tomorrow is O&G practical skills... then Surgery practical skills on Thursday... then Tasks on Saturday.... then its d written papers de!! then... its OVER!! YAY!!!
I am stoked... can't wait for the family to get over here... to see where i have lived for the past 6 years... and where i spend m y time... how i live the harshest of winters.. hahahaha....
Then, i cant wait to go back and go on shoppin spree after shoppin spree with my best friend... and also help her prepare for her wedding which is in June... I'm so honored to be appointed 'Maid of Honor' for her big day... and I wanna just take a moment to congratulate her... wish her all the best in life... and all.. *shall not say everything... save some for the speech on that night... hehehehe lol...*
Anyway, I'm happy for her... I'm excited too... and I can't wait for my turn to come... so many things that are yet to come... *giggles* life is FULL of surprises!!! heheheeh.... well, taking it one step at a time... and leaving everything to the Big Guy up there... He knows what's best... and I'm sure I'm getting nothing but the VERY BEST!!
Ok... Now, for the next of the many baby steps to reaching the peak.... I gotta go study or smth. Adios.....=)

What is it that one sees in another?
Love is really blind…
Covers all the flaws and shortcomings…
Cos all that you see
Is what you want to see…
And what you don’t,
Well, it gets swept under the carpet called bliss…
When does one wake up?
How does one make another see
That when the veil is lifted
Is that what one would want to be with?
By then it would be too late
Even to say ‘I told you so’…
But that would be unnecessary…
Cos you won’t even give ear to what another has to say…
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder…
Is it safe, then, to say…
What one sees in the other is what another sees of the one?
How one feels about the other is what another feels about the one…
The joy of seeing that curve etched on one’s face…
The exhilaration of one’s company…
The knowledge that one is near…
The longing to be connected forever and a day…
Why is it that one can be so blind to see?

How do I tell you that I love you?
How can I show you I really care the world about you?
To the ends of the earth and back I would traverse…
Yet you know not of it… or want it not.
It hurts to the core to have you so near yet feeling so far away
Knowing soon it will no longer be so…
Wishing to make the most of what’s left…
Yet you seem to have wandered off into another place…
One where I do not exist, at least not directly…

Maybe I am jealous…
Maybe I am selfish…
Maybe all I want is you to myself…
I know that is not possible…
But I just cant seem to let you go…
All that I have known in you has all been revoked…
Sometimes I feel I know you not any longer…
My friend of old has moved on…
Leaving me behind to tend to myself…
Oh what a ferocious world it is out there…
With no firm shoulder to cling on for support nor any hand to hold in the darkest alleys…
Where have you gone?
How do I get you back again?
Wine is best matured and aged…
Why did it all have to happen?
I never understood why I was so complying…
Why didn’t I stand up and fight for it?
Why didn’t I say anything about not going through with it?
Dreams will remain dreams…
Castles in the sky…
Bubbles waiting to be burst

Anyway,
I just want you to know
I’d do it all over again if I had to…
Lay down my life for you…
Cross the oceans and seas for you…
Climb the highest mountains for you…
Anything you want me to…
*sigh*

How do you do it?
Put a smile on my face when I’m blue
Make my heart skip a beat when I feel like in a coma
Hypertension, tachycardia when you’re around…
Dyspnea, hypoxic when you’re not.
I’d go through a myocardial infarction if you went away…
Hydrothorax myself from all the tears…
But it’d be all worth it…
If I could just be with you.
The way I feel when I see you smile…
Even if only for a while…
I just want me to be the cause of it…
Cos it hurts too bad if it ain’t.
Sully appears when you treat others nicer…
I turn greener than the hulk himself.
A lot of times I wish I didn’t…
Maybe I wouldn’t feel so bad then…
But it’s the way you make me feel…
I have absolutely no powers over them
Tell me, baby, what can I do…
Cos sitting in the dark with you on my mind
Ain’t getting the job done.
You make me soar on wings I never knew I had…
Feel like I’m on top of the world with the sun on my back…
See the beauty in every little thing that comes my way…
You’re the reason I wake up everyday with a skip in my step…
I dread being apart from you…
I wish we were joined at the hip…
Forever and a day is not enough to get to know you…
There’s so much I don’t know where to start…
What a shame that I no longer have the opportunity…
I missed out on that chance.
All I ask is that she treat you the same way I would…
Cos you deserve nothing less…
I want only the best for you…
Because no matter what I say or do
The fact is…
I still love you.
As much as I want to deny it…
Every fibre of my being screams out with passion and desire…
I can’t change the way I’m wired…
I wish life wouldn’t be so cruel…
To give me you and then take you away…
If ever I was given a second chance,
I wouldn’t let you go ever again.
You mean too much to me…
You make me feel whole and complete.
Maybe I’m not the perfect person for you…
Maybe I’m taking the place of another…
But, oh, how I wish I was…
Because I can’t live another day without you…
Maybe I can… but I don’t ever want to…
I don’t want to find out what it would be like to not have you..
To not have your arms around me…
To not smell the scent of your perfume…
Or the warmth of your skin…
If only you knew…
Would it make any difference?
Would it change anything?
I wish it would…
Cos you’re the best thing that’s ever happened to me.
Why do I feel so deeply for you when you don’t even care…
I don’t want to feel this way yet I can’t stop myself.
When you’re not around I wish you were here…
Yet when you are near, it feels like you’re a million miles away.
Sometimes I see a spark in your eye
Sometimes it’s a glimmer…
Yet I’ll never know if it was because of me
Or someone else…
It hurts so much I’m getting immune to it
Yet over and over again the pain I still can’t fully bear.
When will I get over this?
When will it come to an end?
For you everything seems to be so much better…
I’m happy you feel that way.
I know how that feeling feels like…
I once had a chance to feel it too…
When everything faded into oblivion…
And the only thing that mattered was to live a day at a time…
Soaking in the most of whatever life had to offer.
Now, the only thing that keeps me sane
Is living life one step at a time
So as not to put too much hope or expectation in anything or anyone
Lest it be crushed into a million pieces like before…
Burst of the bubble into thin air…
Why can’t we talk like normal?
Why can’t I seem to say what I want to say when I’m with you?
Why do I eat my words up and jumble all my sentences it comes out as a mumble?
I want to be myself again…
I want to love and be loved in return…
I want to see the sun rise and think how blessed am I to be alive
And then turn over and look into your smiling face…
And have a blanket of warmth come over me
The knowledge that it feels awesome to be alive
And to be able to share this moment with you.
So where are you, then?
How can I find you?
What do you look like?
What are your interests?
Come quick… I’m waiting…
I have been waiting ever since the day I knew I had you…
I will still wait til the day you appear in front of me…
Till the day I meet you…
Till then, do take care.

2:38am 825a Hostel4

Why did you pack up and go?
Although you’re far away I still can’t let you go…
Lost in entanglement, without your presence
Sad at the fact I am helpless in making you feel better…
Maybe it is best to leave you alone for a bit…
Maybe I need to learn to not hold on so tight
But is it my fault that I love you too much to care?
After all, I want nothing more than to see you happy…
Even if it means to make me cry.
If only I could show you how much you mean to me…
If the words I say could melt all the snow and bring flowers to bloom
I would cross the oceans,
Climb the highest mountains,
Cross the Sahara desert…
Just to make sure you feel wanted, needed, loved…
Assured that when you lay your head to sleep at night…
Someone really cared, still cares and will always care for you.

2:42am, 825a Hostel4
Take a look at my world through my eyes…
What can you see?
Do you see what I see?
Can you feel what I feel?
The beauty that lies deep within you…
The love I feel for you…
The pain that sears through me when you turn cold…
Where did I go wrong?
We were meant to be…
Everything was right…
Everything…except that which was in my mind.
No one ever warned about quick minds…
But lots have been said about not worrying.
Yet how is it that I care so much about one person?
How is it that every fibre of my being just wants to see that one person happy…
Why is it that my everything is evolving around this one person?
Every second of my waking moment is filled with you in my mind…
Every moment I’m wondering what occupies you…
Wondering if I, too, am in your mind…
Thinking of ways to cross our paths without making it obvious…
You make me ponder… you make me stare…
You send me half way across the world and back in my mind
Yet when I’m there in person, I disappear…
So come and take a look at my world through my eyes…
Tell me what you see…
Maybe it may give some enlightenment…
To shed some light on why I do the things I do…
Or say what I say…
Or think what I think…
Try my world for a day
And tell me what you think.

4:14am 825a Hostel 4

Deja vu in another body....

All the things I see happen has happened before...

maybe the players are different...

But the gameplay is the same...

I know the strategies behind it...

I see the loopholes...

But the final outcome is still uncertain.

So what am I saying?

Nothing passes me by unnoticed...

As much as it doesn't mean much to anyone...

Yet because I know....

That makes all the difference.

No matter what I do to remove that knowledge...

It is there, inputed into the memories of time...

Would I want to remove it if it was an option?

Sometimes I wished I never knew...

Sometimes I wished I was not me...

Sometimes all I wanted is for it all to rewind again...

But regret is a potent poison...

Not to be allowed to dwell...

For now, to take it one step at a time...

Living in the 'Today' rather than 'Yesteryears'...

Nor in the 'Tomorrows' that are neverending...

To hold my head up high, chest out, shoulders straight...

And with all the love that can be mustered out...

To try the very best to make the most of what there is...

Today is all there is...

There was a zillion things I should've done differently...

A million words I should've said...

But it all is not important anymore...

There is two sides to every coin...

The choise to be the head or the tail is in our hands.

Maybe then living life will make all the difference...

I think its safe to say "I know..."

Cos nothing tells it more than what one calls.....

EXPERIENCE.

Went for youth today... it was great to see all the lil ones all so spirited. There was once a time I was there too. Dunno if I wanna stay in that time again... young and carefree... or be where I am right now... well, life aint that carefree... but I guess I do enjoy the me now too... of all the things I have been though the past year itself is more than enough to fill a book!
The grace to sustain through it all was just amazing. =)

Growin Up...

I've been back for less than a week already... and my days have so far been pretty full. Its nice to have something to do.. or someone to talk to especially when all your friends are all away. Thank God Lis & Lin are here... Lis every year without fail has been accompanyin me especially on Mondays... "LaLa's day".. lol... and lately, Lin has been around to join us... and also with the honor of having Ray in company too. Once in a while, we wud haf d high pleasure of havin the presence of Gab... hmm.. the only missing link is gNet... and if favourable, Kian too! ahh... dat would be D-Day!! lol...
But people grow up... things change... and all around, people are talking of settling down. Hmm...how does one choose? How does one know if it is THE right one? What are the signs? Sooner or later, its just inevitable. I've heard about people ready to tie the knot, yet just weeks before, call it off and thats it. Some are so close to even a few days before... and then months later, news is that the person found another which eventually became THE ONE... scary... to think that ANYTHING can happen...
On a lighter note... hmm... after all the movies we're been shown.. and the different ways of being proposed to... it does make one wonder (and in the process spoiling what could be a gud surprise) about the different ways that one can possibly be proposed with... lol... and the danger of it is that one's imagination is so great that when the real one happens.. it's probably short of what the imagination could do. LOL...
anyway, save it for another day....

Are you a nice guy who has always wondered why the cocky guy -- the one who barely appears interested in the girl -- is usually the one who gets the girl? Have you suffered from hearing the words, "You're a really nice guy, but I only like you as a friend," from a woman who you would do (or may, in fact, have already done) just about anything and everything for -- only to turn around and watch her date (or even chase) a guy who treats her like she's nothing special? And are you stumped wondering why she would date a guy who treats her like that when she could have you who would treat her like a princess and give her everything she wants? Well, you better brace yourself because I'm going to tell you a couple of secrets that you might not want to hear.

First, "nice" equates with boring and predictable. Look up "nice" in the dictionary and you find: pleasant; agreeable; satisfactory. In other words, average -- not exceptional, not exciting, and not sexy.

I'll bet you've never heard a woman say she didn't want to date a guy because he was too confident, too passionate, or too exciting -- have you? But, I'll bet you have heard women say things like, "He's such a nice guy. He's so sweet and he's always there for me, but I only like him as a friend." Or, "He's such a good guy -- kind, thoughtful, generous, honest, loyal -- but there's no chemistry. He just doesn't turn me on." Sadly, I hear it all the time. The fact is, Mr. Nice Guy, you cannot bore a woman into feeling attracted to you or into wanting to date you. And as obvious as that sounds, if you are one of those guys I described that is exactly what you are trying to do. And it won't work.

Please understand that I am not suggesting that you mistreat women or disrespect them in way. What I suggesting is that you value and respect yourself more. What I suggesting is that you value and respect yourself more.

To illustrate what I mean: The answer to the question, "Why does the guy who doesn't appear to care as much about the girl get the girl?" is simple: The nice guy cares too much, too soon. He has made the woman too important and too valuable and it shows in everything he says and does. He is too available, too eager to please, too accommodating, and he gives too much -- all without getting anything in return. By doing so, he has made himself appear desperate, insecure, needy of this woman's attention, affection, and approval -- and he has stripped himself of any value in her eyes. After all, if he's already doing and giving everything, without her doing or giving anything - why would she value him? She won't. She is not going to value him any more than he values himself. What she is going to do is look for someone else, someone who she perceives as being more worthy, more confident, and more valuable.

It works like this: Once you need something, or you want it too badly, you forfeit your strength and lose all power of negotiation. Once you need something, or you want it too badly, you forfeit your strength and lose all power of negotiation. You are in a position of weakness and you are perceived as weak. Someone (or something) else is in control of you, the situation, and it's outcome. Men in this situation appear to be anything but confident, strong, and exciting. More, they are perceived as being unworthy and as lacking value.

Translation: Things that are easily acquired, obtained, or maintained, without any effort or sacrifice, lack value... it's human nature.

The secret to why the cocky guy wins with women, over the nice guy, is that he is perceived as being a stronger, more confident guy with more value. How? He never invests everything -- his entire being, ego, and self-worth in what one woman's response or reaction to him is. He doesn't gush with compliments; he isn't always available; he doesn't give too much; and he knows he isn't going to die if a woman says "no" to him. More, his attitude is, yeah, I'd like to go out with you, but if I can't, that's OK -- I'm a busy guy, with exciting things going on, and lots of other options.

BITTER SWEET

Life is just the way it is....

Things happen,

Things come and go...

And you never really know...

There was a time it felt right...

Then tables turned...

Winds changed...

Course shifted...

Now lost in the midst of uncertainty...

Patience...

Only time will tell.

*sigh*

She heard the winds hollow today...

For a moment, time froze in midair.

The same wind brought refreshing air

Yet also a tinge of destruction...

She smiled silly over the thought...

That nonsense could make perfect sense:

Some may hear but they may not understand...

And look but do not see...

Hopes hanging by the thread...

Looking to the sun she saw its rays...

Yes, there's Hope...

If there's Faith...

And of course, Love.

*For ALL things work for the good of those who LOVE Him... ;)*

Been raining lately... and its that time of the year again where people sit at their desks diligently peering into an open book... irregardless of whether anything is goin in or not... yeah.. exam period is back again... and this time, there is also that BIG paper that will determine the placement of the "M.D." at the end of people's names. Sounds like it will be a long long month... but time does fly by really fast... so.. just wanna wish y'all sitting for the GOS exams...

All the Best...

Favor goes before you...

You have the mind of Christ... =)

Last weekend, we had a graduation party for the graduates.... pretty awesome to see everyone dressed up... looking stunning and all...

I detest to think about that time when we have to leave to go back for summer holidays knowing somewhere behind there that when we return back in September, the face of this place will change with the absence of certain people that make life here the way it is right now... it will feel like loosing a limb... or smth liddat.. *sigh* (so not looking forward to that...)

Although its not like I wont be seeing them ever again... but the fact that its miles and miles apart... that there is definitely 0% probability to meet in the hospitals or on the bus.. or in the streets... *eeeeee...*

But that is the way life goes... unevitable... and soon it will be my turn to leave this place... to leave my comfort zone into a world of unknowns... a world which i have been trying to push out of my mind for a long time... a world where I have to bear responsibilities like an adult..... a world where i AM an adult.... *hmmm*

Hold me,

Never let me go...

Change me,

I want the world to know...

You are

Living in me

God, I know

You'll never let me go...

God's Letter to Women...

When I created the heaven and the earth, I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils. But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man, because your nostrils are too delicate.

I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you. Man was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with the creativity. From one bone, I fashioned you. I chose the bone that protects man's life. I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him,as you are meant to do.

Around this one bone, I shaped you....... I modeled you.I created you perfectly and beautifully. Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile.You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart. His heart is the centre of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life.The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart. Support man as the rib cage supports the body.

You were not taken from his feet, to be under him, nor were you taken from his head, to be above him. You were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be held close to his side.You are my perfect angel..... You are my beautiful little girl.

You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence, and my eyes fill when I see the virtues in your heart.Your eyes... don't change them. Your lips, how lovely when they part in prayer. Your nose, so perfect in form. Your hands so gentle to touch. I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep. I've held your heart close to mine.

Of all that lives and breathes, you are most like me. Adam walked with me in the cool of the day, yet he was lonely. He could not see me or touch me. He could only feel me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with me, I fashioned in you; my Holiness, my Strength, myPurity, my Love, my Protection and Support.

You are special because you are an extension of me. Man represents my image, woman my emotions. Together, you represent the totality of God.

So man...... treat woman well. Love her, respect her, for she is fragile. In hurting her, you hurt me. What you do to her, you do to me. In crushing her, you only damage your own heart; the heart of your Father, and the heart of her Father. Woman, support man. In humility, show him the power of emotion I have given you. In gentle quietness, show your strength. In love, show him that you are the rib that protects his inner self.

Did you not know that a WOMAN is special in God's eyes?

*untitled*

The rustling of breath, the tingle up the spine…
The feeling of warmth which can’t be defined…
One second more and it would be crushing…
Yet a moment less would be terribly denying…
No words to describe it; they couldn’t do it justice.
Thoughts bounced off the walls of the mind
Though nothing made sense.
Dull yet exhilarating …
Terrified yet audacious …
Subtle yet evident ...
Agreeing yet denying…
Silent yet deafening …
Still yet full of motion…
Thrilled yet perturbed…
Lingering yet withdrawing…
Then the spell broke.
Times up.
The moment passed.
The world continued to spin on axis.
Life continues…
That’s just the way it is.

Confidence Despite Weaknesses

Hmm.. last night’s cell, we spoke about confidence and insecurities. J shared using Gideon as an example… (called him the ‘chicken’.. lol… *mind whirled into motion*) =P
Then we shared about what made people look confident to us… some said it was the way they walked, others said it was how loud they spoke. Some even said that the strengths that they portrayed was just a cover-up of their weakness underneath.
After all that discussion and sharing, we spoke about ways we could increase confidence or avoid the lack there-of. So, being the nice person I am, I’ll share what we shared with you… hehehehe…
1. THINK POSITIVE
You gotta know who you are… being sure of yourself is important to a strong foundation of what you think you are capable of
2. TALK TO SOMEONE
Not just anyone… someone who is capable of giving good advice.. Godly advice… someone that you can be accountable to is even better. Sharing is caring… and problems and weaknesses are no exception!! =)
3. THINK OF 10 GOOD THINGS EVERYTIME YOU THINK OF 1 BAD THING
This would train you to look more on the positive side… looking for the best in others… well, that’s what love is all about anyway… right? =P It’s so easy to look at others’ inability we tend to ignore their capabilities and the fact of how blessed we are to have them around. After awhile, we realize that trying to think of 10 good things about people we dislike is kinda tiring that we kinda avoid thinking about the bad altogether and strive to find that speck of good.
4. AVOID COMPARISON
Comparisons just brings condemnation… either upon oneself or another. When we compare, only 1 of 2 things can happen. Either we see others better than us and thus feel incompetent…or we see ourselves better than the other… thus making us feel proud. And as they say, pride comes before a fall. Either way, the outcome is pretty much looking down.We are all different… unique…special. As some say, its pretty much equivalent to comparing a boat and a pencil. To say that one is better than the other is pretty much insane… not to say its probably a characteristic of a “psy” patient!!
Besides that, to compare is to decrease personal standards. Instead of striving towards the best, comparing justifies at just being better than another. It isn’t necessarily the best you can be… and that is definitely below the average that God has for us!!! The example we had was that we may compare our results from an exam and be glad that we got a pass while the rest failed. But a pass is just a pass. It isn’t what we should strive for. It is the distinction mark that we should be looking towards.
5. FOCUS ON POTENTIALS; NOT LIMITATIONS
We were given the grace to accomplish that which we were made to do. Not more, not less. Striving to what God has for us is to achieve that which we are made to be. To look at limitations is to say that God is insane to think so highly of us and that it is impossible!
6. REMEMBER : Confidence is not covering up a weakness but rather, the assurance of that which is really you… not letting anyone shake you off… and not falter from the words of others.

Well, these are just the few points that we thought of in the short time that we had. If anyone has anything to add, feel free to contribute…=P

CNY Concert

Was a blast of a time last night... I had fun... enjoyed myself... enjoyed the excitement and exhiliaration... the adrenaline rush... the look into your eyes... *sigh*

Now that its over... life is back to what it was before... maybe a little bit more... with the memory of yesterday still running freshly through my mind.

Thanx for all the times sacrificed... the excitement of everyday... the everything!!

*sigh*

Didn't want it to be over yet don't think I could live with it forever either... one or the other.... life has taken its course....

*I'll cya around then....*

SPA Interview for Medical Officer

Talk about FAVOR!!!
I really owe this one BIG TIME to d big guy up there.... without His help, I dont think i would even hire myself!! Gosh...
Really feel under-prepared for this interview... it was in English (thank GOD!!)... and it was a good jerk to reality that its time to really buck up twice as hard and thrice as smart... or else.. its a harsh blow to the face of reality! But most of all, watching those that came out from my board with the long face or the grumpy expression... that totally didnt help boost any confidence i had left. But thanks to those that still kept my head up high even when I tried to hide it low... for the pat on the back and the hugs... and the shoulder to lean on... I am eternally grateful! Most of all, for the favor that always goes before me... the one that causes the panel to not be able to but just be nice to me... even after all that I have heard about my board, I think I can fully digress!! I totally love my panel... that they were really encauraging, making my interview a pleasantly enjoyable one although I barely could answer the tough Medical questions given. And to be told at the end that all I needed was just a little bit more confidence in myself... i couldn't agree more! Praise and glory to Him who sustains my very breath!!
After all said and done, I am totally thankful and grateful that I passed... why not...I'm a government servant grade UD41 when I graduate!!! hehehehe....
*thanks for being there... even though you would've been there anyway...you had to...=P*

Esok Interview SPA lerr...
Mereka kata Interview dalam BM.. Macam mana lah? walaupun BM saya dulu dapat A1.. tapi 7 tahun tak guna langsung...A1 pun boleh jadi E8 la.... haih.....Tapi mereka kata... jangan putus asa... Fikirkan Boleh!!! hahahah...
Maka, dengan itu, saya kenalah pergi hafal Rukun Negara, Lagu Kebangsaan... Senarai Menteri Menteri Kabinet and yang terutama, nama Yang Di-Pertuan Agung kita yang teramatlah panjang itu... walaupun kemungkinan ditanya amatlah tipis. hehehehe...
Lagilah dengan penyakit-penyakit berjangkit yang tidak terhingga... aihh.. letih lah mata saya... esok cepat cepat selesaikan dan pergi makan... biar habis tak payah lenggah. hehehe... Saya rasa lebih awal kan lebih baik. Lagi lama ditunda, lagi gempak pula rasanya.
Macam mana lah nak fikir perkataan-perkataan Medik yang.... Tuhan tolong lah saya!!!!!!

Watch your THOUGHTS,

They become Words.

Watch your WORDS,

They become Actions.

Watch your ACTIONS,

They become a Habit.

Watch your HABITS,

They make your CHARACTER!!

YOU ARE...

You are...

The love of my life,

You are...

The hope that I cling to,

You mean...

More than this world to me.

I wouldn't trade You...

For Silver or Gold,

I wouldn't trade You...

For treasures untold,

You are...

You are my everything!

Love Unconditionally...

That was what the theme of the sermon in service last night. Really reminded me again and again that this is what REAL love is all about. Not picking sides, irregardless of situations, emotions or strength... to love in ALL circumstances. It is not easy, I must admit. There are lots of times when we pick and choose who we want to love or when we want to love.
Although we are called to love everyone the same, there are just some people whom we love more than others... not that we are conditional... but just that we are investing into their lives. Never-the-less, we must still constantly check our motives lest we start getting conditional with these people because they are closer to us. Constantly making sure that we do not start to require more of the other person than before.

"O God, help me to love others as you love me... and BE love...even as You are love"

IF I KNEW
If I knew it would be the last time
That I'd see you fall asleep,
I would tuck you in more tightly
and pray the Lord, your soul to keep.

If I knew it would be the last time
that I see you walk out the door,
I would give you a hug and kiss
and call you back for one more

If I knew it would be the last time
I'd hear your voice lifted up in praise,
I would video tape each action and word,
so I could play them back day after day.

If I knew it would be the last time,
I could spare an extra minute
to stop and say 'I love you,'
instead of assuming you would KNOW I do.

If I knew it would be the last time
I would be there to share your day,
Well I'm sure you'll have so many more,
so I can let just this one slip away.

For surely there's always tomorrow
to make up for an oversight,
and we always get a second chance
to make everything just right.

There will always be another day
to say 'I love you,'
And certainly there's another chance
to say 'Anything I can do?'

But just in case I might be wrong,
and today is all I get,
I'd like to say how much I love you
and I hope we never forget.

Tomorrow is not promised to anyone,
young or old alike,
And today may be the last chance
you get to hold your loved one tight.

So if you're waiting for tomorrow,
why not do it today?
For if tomorrow never comes,
you'll surely regret the day,

That you didn't take that extra time
for a smile, a hug, or a kiss
and you were too busy to grant someone,
what turned out to be their one last wish.

So hold your loved ones close today,
and whisper in their ear,
Tell them how much you love them
and that you'll always hold them dear

Take time to say 'I'm sorry',
'Please forgive me,' 'Thank you,' or 'It's okay.'
And if tomorrow never comes,
you'll have no regrets about today